Every night when I go to bed, A heavy burden sets upon my heart as I ask myself, “What did I do in my entire day?”
Now perhaps this question may end you up with million of answers of what you did in your entire day, but ponder over the question again. What did you really do in your entire day?
I am not talking about eating, working, studying, cooking etc. These are normal stuff. Everyone does it. These are the stuff within the box. But what have you done to go beyond your box?
Have you done anything productive that matters truly a lot?
Have you saved any life today?
Have you accomplished any goal?
Did you fulfill any dream?
Did you do anything that may, perhaps, call some self appreciation?
Blessed are those people who can find an honest answer to this question that properly satisfies their consciousness.
But for those, like me, I guess, who do not find any answer to this question will find themselves beneath the burden of living a life so aimlessly that spending everyday of the life is a waste.
When I ask myself every night, “What did I do in my entire day, today?”, I find myself guilty, embarrassed, sad, broke and pathetic in my own eyes. What did I do today? I got up, I went over to work online, had my glass of juice on desk, strolled a little here and there in the house, lunch, work, dinner, net surfing, sleep.
Well, If I am not that sleepy, I might send healing energy to my relatives and then around the world through Reiki, but that isn’t enough to satisfy my guilt.
Is this how I am really am going to spend the rest of my life?
There are so many things on my list that I wish to do and em sure there are so many things on your things-to-do list too, but are we really doing them? Or even trying?
Trust me people, the sleep that a poor man gets after having sweat in the hot summer making bricks and bringing home a small box of sweets from the earned money for his children, is the sleep that a million would die for.
Don’t drag yourself through everyday of your life. There is still time. Still time to make your life worth it.
But if that time goes away, then you will not be able to survive the burden of guilt of having wasted your life.