It’s a very strange world that I have seen.
I am a person who is basically falling deeper into the black hole every moment of life, slowly and gradually although. This black hole is getting deeper and darker as I keep falling into it.
In the start I was afraid that I would fall down and get hurt when I hit the ground. But that fear has vanished as I realize that this hole is endless. It just keeps going deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper.
Having realized that, I am certain that there will be not instant pain or hurt as I shall never hit the ground. I will only deplete, erode, bruise and burn myself slowly as I keep falling deeper into it.
What’s funny is, every now and then, I see a hand from above , trying to help pull me up. But I am not sure if I should actually socialize with that stranger/friend/person who is trying to help me. I trust no one and I need no one is the policy.
In the same policy I have passed so many hands that have come to me.
Yet, once in a blue moon, I set aside my policy of trust no one and I need no one, and I give that stranger/friend/person a chance to do what they seem to be doing, help me?! I guess, For that’s what they show.
They stay by my side even though I keep warning them of everything I am jinxed with and that I am evil and should be let to fall in this dark hole. Yet they seem to be pulling me out of the hole so in the course of the time I loosen my grip of my policy. They seem to open up too. I help them in every regard as much as I can and sometimes even more than I can actually handle.
Soon the help they needed is achieved.
And one final moment,
When I am still being me, as I was, for the last entire time of our meeting, they find one loophole over which they can accuse me, blame me and finally tell me “YOU ARE JINXED AND EVIL AND YOU SHOULD JUST BE LEFT FALLING IN THAT HOLE.”
And I am like… “errrr excuse me… I already told you that as a warning before.”
But it’s too late.
They have pushed me back deeper into the black hole with greater speed and thrust so now I will deplete, erode, bruise and burn faster than I did before or until I find my same pace of falling.
And each time I am pushed back deeper into the hole, I realize my trust no one and need no one policy was correct after all.
Although the black hole that I am falling in seems like a very scary place, but to me it’s the safest place that I can find for myself because I guess there really is no place for people like me on this earth.