My first experience was a couple of days back.
As I spoke in my previous blog that I have started meditating, So whats my meditation process?
I close my eyes, keep reciting a prayer in my mind and I focus on the darkness that lies inside while the eyes are closed. That’s something I started doing few days back.
I did that in the night which put me to a very peaceful sleep and when I woke up, I felt kinda good.
The next day I try it again. I sit down with my eyes closed looking into the darkness while reciting a fixed verse of a prayer. At first my eyes hurt because I have to force them to look inside and the constant force was painful. But after sometime, the pain goes away and I find myself not forcing but pleasurably looking into the wide horizon of darkness.
Still reciting the verses but now in a slow pace.
I see translucent light hurling from one place to another.
It changes and now I see a dot of spark in the center.
There are many sparkly dots all coming from infinity towards me.
Everything goes away. It’s all plain dark all over.
I try looking for the light but I don’t see it anymore. There is just darkness when suddenly something scary come.
Moving from left to right, I see darker shadows. I look closely that they resemble the silhouette of men wearing cloaks and probably carrying a basket. They are moving from left to right one after other.
At this moment I feel a little scared.
I feel that I am right there and I want to get out but I cannot open my eyes. The force is too strong to make me open my eyes. While the silhouette of men are still moving from left to right, the strange fear starts growing in me and so does the desire to open my eyes but I am still unable.
I am pulled into the vision.
There is a sudden whisper in my right ear ( I cannot describe that noise) but it was enough to give me a shock effect which made me open my eyes.
When I opened my eyes, It felt like I woke up from a sleep and had seen a dream. My heart was beating fast which was a sign that I was actually very scared 😦 🙂
The same night I tried again and until today I have been trying to meditate in the same way, but I am not seeing any light or vision anymore. There is just darkness. I guess I am unable to focus may be because I get interrupted by my family members or I am not giving much time to it.
Will do again with full concentration when I find free hours. 🙂