After what you did, yes I am broken at heart
With you I walked ahead but now I am at the start
There are many, oh so many different rough lane
& I am really not sure if I should start all over again
Even if I do, I don’t know my life would take me where
The only thought of a new life shudders me with fear
I am right where you left me, alone & ready to fall
No one hears my screams, no one answers my call
I am looking up at my future, searching for myself
But I have already lost me… Lost in yourself Read more
Posts Tagged With: agony
I don’t speak rude, I take bath everyday, I pay my bills on time and I always always always make healthy posts then WHY OH WHY does wordpress hate me so much?
What did I do to it that it hates me so much.
I am heartbroken. I am sad. I am blue. I am hurt and now I want my MOMMMMYYYYYYYYYY.
WordPress has officially considered me as a Spammer. So whenever I make comments on blogs that I love, I know my comments have gone in spam because after the comment has been posted, it neither is on the blog page nor it is held for moderation. It is directly sent to spam.
And unless the blogger checks his spam folder and un-spams me, my comment is going to stay there for eternity. Read more
It’s a very strange world that I have seen.
I am a person who is basically falling deeper into the black hole every moment of life, slowly and gradually although. This black hole is getting deeper and darker as I keep falling into it.
In the start I was afraid that I would fall down and get hurt when I hit the ground. But that fear has vanished as I realize that this hole is endless. It just keeps going deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper.
Having realized that, I am certain that there will be not instant pain or hurt as I shall never hit the ground. I will only deplete, erode, bruise and burn myself slowly as I keep falling deeper into it.
What’s funny is, every now and then, I see a hand from above , trying to help pull me up. But I am not sure if I should actually socialize with that stranger/friend/person who is trying to help me. I trust no one and I need no one is the policy.
In the same policy I have passed so many hands that have come to me.
Yet, once in a blue moon, I set aside my policy of trust no one and I need no one, and I give that stranger/friend/person a chance to do what they seem to be doing, help me?! I guess, For that’s what they show.
They stay by my side even though I keep warning them of everything I am jinxed with and that I am evil Read more
My bridge of faith was once so strong when it was new. It shined when the sun light fell on it like a bridge made of gold. It was untouched by anyone, by any storm, by any calamity. It was strong enough that each time I wanted to pass through it, I would happily walk on it humming my favorite song.
And each time I would pass it, I would find an even stronger, even better bridge ahead.
Then as time passed,
Several storms hit my bridge. There were small storms that only caused scratches but then there were huge storms that kept coming one after the other. They were the storms of emotions, decisions, relations and loss.
Although the first few storms couldn’t damage my bridge but you know how it is, isn’t it? When a storm keeps hitting a bridge, its goes through the process of wear and tear, it gets deteriorated and gradually becomes weak.
Now, Read more